i don't know why , in that day i felt so afraid about my self.
in 14 october 2009 i have one bad feel about me , i'll pass away in my birthday 15 0ctober 2009.
i told it to my bestfriend ipul , i told him all.
i cried in that situation , i can't stop my emotion.
i felt so depressed , and very scared.
luckily i have many friends that can support me.
they said "tenang aja kok fi , besok lo masih bisa ketawa-tawa sm kita" , "besok kan lo ulang tahun pasti kita bakal seneng-seneng deh" , "tenang aja fia , suggest lo ga bener" and more more more.
in that way , i promised to Allah.
"yaAllah aku janji bakal rajin sholat , ngaji , ga ngelawan mama papa , selalu istighfar sm engkau. tolong beri aku kesempatan untuk perbaiki semua kesalahanku. masih banyak yg masih harus aku selesaikan. masa depanku masih ada yaAllah." , i really promised.
i knew Allah is fair , i knew Allah loves me and all creature in the world , i knew Allah listen to my promised.
and in my birthday i still can breath the air , laughed with my friends , got the birthday greet from my friends , got the cake from my family , and i still can pray and hope to Allah.
in my 16th birthday honestly i didn't want any great present or suprised (sebenernya mau hehe) i just want life and chance to fix my broken life , i want to make my family , friends , Allah and my country proud of me , i want to be Sholeha women , and i want to be an ordinary human but inside of me i have extraordinary personality.
amin amin yaAllah!
alhamdullilah and thaks for all :D
in 14 october 2009 i have one bad feel about me , i'll pass away in my birthday 15 0ctober 2009.
i told it to my bestfriend ipul , i told him all.
i cried in that situation , i can't stop my emotion.
i felt so depressed , and very scared.
luckily i have many friends that can support me.
they said "tenang aja kok fi , besok lo masih bisa ketawa-tawa sm kita" , "besok kan lo ulang tahun pasti kita bakal seneng-seneng deh" , "tenang aja fia , suggest lo ga bener" and more more more.
in that way , i promised to Allah.
"yaAllah aku janji bakal rajin sholat , ngaji , ga ngelawan mama papa , selalu istighfar sm engkau. tolong beri aku kesempatan untuk perbaiki semua kesalahanku. masih banyak yg masih harus aku selesaikan. masa depanku masih ada yaAllah." , i really promised.
i knew Allah is fair , i knew Allah loves me and all creature in the world , i knew Allah listen to my promised.
and in my birthday i still can breath the air , laughed with my friends , got the birthday greet from my friends , got the cake from my family , and i still can pray and hope to Allah.
in my 16th birthday honestly i didn't want any great present or suprised (sebenernya mau hehe) i just want life and chance to fix my broken life , i want to make my family , friends , Allah and my country proud of me , i want to be Sholeha women , and i want to be an ordinary human but inside of me i have extraordinary personality.
amin amin yaAllah!
alhamdullilah and thaks for all :D
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